i miss

1. my old lap top. ade gambar and ade games. nak games yang dapat mase kat upm dulu. mane nak cekau ni huhuhu.insane aquarium sume. i want. walaupun tak tau la ade masa untuk main game tersebut tapi nak sangat ok.
2. my old job. hahahaha. only the job not the boss. free and easy job. if only they pay me enough .huahuahua
3. my friends. i found out few friends star to play hide and seek with me/yg kahwin busy with husbang, yang single busy with others thinking that those yg newly weds is busy with their husband only. what the hell am i writing? but then i'm happy enough to say most of them showed up again this ramadhan. alhamdulillah. i miss them all. honestly i do.i do i do do do do do do...
   
4. my old self. refer to the point above, i think i also hide myself from my friend. why? .........i dont know when i am going to feel relax and happy with i am doing. this job is making me stressed n i just feel like sleeping when i reached home. i am disconnected from the world outside.luckily i am married now.
   
5. my husband. every now and then. the first thing i miss when i am at work is him. when it is 8 am i am already thinking of 5 pm.haha.why?not because of mushy lovey bla bla bla. because i am not happy at work and thinking of him being with him make me happy even though when he is asleep and do nothing beside me. i think i have an issue with stress. dont u think so?
6. my girl. my baby girl. its been 2 years and still i could not let go. she was only a cat and only 5 months with me. but the memory, the smell, the love..i miss her so much it hurts so bad.

the bad thing when i am stressed is, i am not able to do anything. and it shows. not able to bake, not able to cook, not able to say hi to my beloved friends, not able to be a good wife to husband but he understand thank god for giving me a very patient and the most penyabar husband ever. semoga die akan terus sabar n aku dapat melalui semua ni dengan mudah.

i wonder why i am so stressed. what should i do? life is like this kan.be happy be happy.

the other day Puan, my boss asked me, what is your motivation to come to work? and i said, do i have to have a motivation?bcoz i have non. aku jawab dalam hati saje la weh. depan die aku jawab i dunno. duit kot?hehe. oh my how to have motivation when u are not happy? but the she asked me, are u happy here? i think she know my mixed feeling inside. or are u reading my blog puan? haha. i answer, when i think back, there are no reason for me to not be happy.

yes, ape kes aku tak happy. my work is answer call, do escalation, tak payah bawak balik keje kat umah pun.

think think think. or should i just stop thinking and just enjoy the moment?

god i think i need a vacation. and some tv's. its been a while since i last watched tv. i only had the time during weekend. okey la bye. i am so torn between everything. ok la bye. enough merepek pagi2 sabtu ni.tadaaaa~