2015 dah

hi all assalamualaikum it has been a while.. like always. busy with everything.

nyampah tak bace? mcm die sorng je busy. diri sendiri pun tak suke dengan kenyataan tu. busy. busy busy busy. tv pun tak tengok. suratkhabar lagi la. even online newspaper pun tak bace.

tak percaye? percaye la.

positif nye, ok alhamdulillah aku sntiasa ade bende nak buat. hari biase keje, balik keje malam or senja mmg mase dh nak gelap or bile dah gelap. weekend pulak most of the time pi umah mertua or at least 1 day rehay as in tidooo. yes tido.

2 minggu lps blaja masak nasi ayam. Alhamdulillah.

semalam weekend.sabtu pg dtg keje buat overtime. 12.30 tenghari balik rehat. at 4pm pergi dmnsara. then mlm pegi wayang cicakmen n reach home at around 12.40 am.

ahad pagi. rehat. tido. mkn. golek2 dgn roro. petang kuar pegi pancing ikan n mlm pegi beli brg dapur kat aeon big.

today keje.

ape lagi nak cite?

tahun ni aku rase aku dh jadi semakin heartless n bitter. sebab terlalu byk bace email2 negatif. teknologi menjadikan manusia semakin tak ber adab ye. being a customer service for freakin 8 years now and this year is the worse ever.

org kate jgn amik hati. ni keje aje. all i can say is sila dtg sini, duduk tempat aku n rase sendri. selagi belum , jgn ckp ape2. if u have never ever experience it yourself, you wont know.

deep down inside i think it is time for me to stop. career wise mmg makin naik. gaji naik. tapi hati n perasaan tu tak sihat. ape la gune gaji ok keje ok tapi asyik takde mase utk diri sndri. aku ade mase utk keje n everything else kecuali utk diri sndri. nak buat ape2 tu kene plan mcm org gile.haha. sad sad.pathetic life fanna so the very pathetic.

maybe aku sndri la tak pandai nak control kan. tgk org lain mcm ok je. entah la entah. maybe sbb penat keje. i dun find any love towards my work. takde. zero. dah penat mengadap org2 yg tak beradap sume. sakit jiwa.

anyway dah pun 2015. awal tahun ni me n sista pegi jumpe anisa for 2 weeks. that is one of the best relaxing time ever. rsse mcm nk migrate sane je. if bapak tak dialisis mmg udah ku anta nenek n atokk duduk sane dgn cucu sulung tu. dah tu kat kl takde cucu.

februariii ade cuti pjg so balik kampung perak.

march pulak dah nak abis.

april  is coming.  goin to be 4 years being husband n wife. childless.

now, can u see how bitter i am? i know what i shud do. but how, when, where  n the question of can i do it? the question lingerssssss like forever.

ok till we meet again. lunch time ni.